So, my dear Internet, it has happened. I have decided to take my blogging (or lack of blogging as it may be) elsewhere. I have joined the ranks over at Tumblr. I suppose I just wasn't inspired enough here at Blogger. Yeah, I'll blame it on that. Please follow me at SeptemberNightfire.Tumblr.com if you can handle change. If you can't, I understand. I don't endorse that type of behavior, but I do understand it.
To Blogger: It was fun while it lasted. I bid you farewell.
-SN
Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
Monday, January 3, 2011
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Cities I want to live in:
--New Bedford, MA + Boston, MA
--Atlanta, GA
--New York, NY
--LA feels like home
--Just visit Chicago
--Seattle
--Atlanta, GA
--New York, NY
--LA feels like home
--Just visit Chicago
--Seattle
Not Enough Sunshine for a Sunday Morning
Here is a guest post from a friend going through a rough patch. No judging! Enjoy.
Can I just go back to sleep? Bc there’s nothing for me today. Ugh I hate everyone right now. My mind is such a mess right now. And I don’t think watching 8 hours of Dexter really helps. At least he has a release. And a job. Just a job would be nice right now. How do I not have a job? Seriously. Wtf. How does my husband not have a job? I feel so bad hating him so much sometimes. I hate that when I sit down to write, my head just goes blank. Maybe I should sit down to write more often so my brain would stfu. I need to write a story about someone who hurts people. I need to get every inner emotion out, no matter how repressed or fucked up it is. I hate this constant feeling of never being good enough. I hate being hungry so often. I hate how I romanticize, like, everything. Kids shouldn’t be taught that. Life isn’t romantic or sweet and no one really deserves anything just for being alive. Jesus. I hate being so negative. Part of me really wants to be a suzy homemaker and clean our house perfectly and make 3 meals a day and wear a blue gingham apron and have Tupperware parties with perfect little hors d'oeuvres and a CLEAN HOUSE. Who fuckin knows. I don’t even know what my dream is. Is that what I really want? Maybe. On an episode of Dexter, he decides he just wants to be content and lead a normal life. And at first that didn’t seem very appealing to me. Sounded boring. Then, after really mauling it over for a minute, I decided that yes, that’s what I want. I mean, wouldn’t it be nice to just be content for once? To not just want want want want. For once, I don’t want to shoot for the moon and land in the stars or whatever. I want to get the job done and let that be adequate. Dear parents: thanks for making me this shitty under-achieving over-achiever that can quite get it right.
Can I just go back to sleep? Bc there’s nothing for me today. Ugh I hate everyone right now. My mind is such a mess right now. And I don’t think watching 8 hours of Dexter really helps. At least he has a release. And a job. Just a job would be nice right now. How do I not have a job? Seriously. Wtf. How does my husband not have a job? I feel so bad hating him so much sometimes. I hate that when I sit down to write, my head just goes blank. Maybe I should sit down to write more often so my brain would stfu. I need to write a story about someone who hurts people. I need to get every inner emotion out, no matter how repressed or fucked up it is. I hate this constant feeling of never being good enough. I hate being hungry so often. I hate how I romanticize, like, everything. Kids shouldn’t be taught that. Life isn’t romantic or sweet and no one really deserves anything just for being alive. Jesus. I hate being so negative. Part of me really wants to be a suzy homemaker and clean our house perfectly and make 3 meals a day and wear a blue gingham apron and have Tupperware parties with perfect little hors d'oeuvres and a CLEAN HOUSE. Who fuckin knows. I don’t even know what my dream is. Is that what I really want? Maybe. On an episode of Dexter, he decides he just wants to be content and lead a normal life. And at first that didn’t seem very appealing to me. Sounded boring. Then, after really mauling it over for a minute, I decided that yes, that’s what I want. I mean, wouldn’t it be nice to just be content for once? To not just want want want want. For once, I don’t want to shoot for the moon and land in the stars or whatever. I want to get the job done and let that be adequate. Dear parents: thanks for making me this shitty under-achieving over-achiever that can quite get it right.
Monday, May 10, 2010
New Look. New Ideas. New New.
So, my dearest Internet, I have changed things up a bit and decided to add a few elements to my page in hopes to move away from conventional "jobs" so I can be a blogger/awesome writer full time.
My life has changed A LOT since I moved to Southern California last July. I've learned a lot about myself, about life, and about people (family, human nature, etc.). I feel like I've been searching for peace and purpose since I was 18. I hope and pray that I've found a way to feel more complete in these areas with the plan my NEW husband and I have.
So here's the idea: We live in the San Fernando Valley now where I have a great job (surrounded by numbnuts, but I can only be so picky)and where the sun shines everyday. Unfortunately, we came up with our fool-proof idea a little late to be able to stay out here so we are moving back home for a little while to pay off bills and get back on track. Then, we are going to start a new Lifestyle blog and travel around to different cities, staying a few weeks at a time to see how people live in different areas. One thing about the area that we come from, is that no one has any real perspective on life out side the shit hole that is Northwest Ohio.
For now, I'll be adding new types of posts that will be leading up to our new blog that should be ready in the next couple months or so. So, since today is Monday and Mondays are terrible by nature, I shall provide a small dose of smile. Thanks for stopping by! -SN
1. Rickyisms
2. Why You Can't Find Something You're Looking For
3. I just can't look away.
4. Yoda Kitteh
My life has changed A LOT since I moved to Southern California last July. I've learned a lot about myself, about life, and about people (family, human nature, etc.). I feel like I've been searching for peace and purpose since I was 18. I hope and pray that I've found a way to feel more complete in these areas with the plan my NEW husband and I have.
So here's the idea: We live in the San Fernando Valley now where I have a great job (surrounded by numbnuts, but I can only be so picky)and where the sun shines everyday. Unfortunately, we came up with our fool-proof idea a little late to be able to stay out here so we are moving back home for a little while to pay off bills and get back on track. Then, we are going to start a new Lifestyle blog and travel around to different cities, staying a few weeks at a time to see how people live in different areas. One thing about the area that we come from, is that no one has any real perspective on life out side the shit hole that is Northwest Ohio.
For now, I'll be adding new types of posts that will be leading up to our new blog that should be ready in the next couple months or so. So, since today is Monday and Mondays are terrible by nature, I shall provide a small dose of smile. Thanks for stopping by! -SN
1. Rickyisms
2. Why You Can't Find Something You're Looking For
3. I just can't look away.
4. Yoda Kitteh
Monday, November 2, 2009
Hey, It's Monday!
I paid bills today. That was the first thing I accomplished this morning. Then I went to school and took a Philosophy test. I started a new medication last week so I'm still figuring out how it's working and affecting me. Who knows.
Anyway, our test was pretty straight forward and my sister and I found a good way to remember everything for it. We decided to relate the info to things in our lives. For instance, we were studying Hysteria and what the traits were for someone who had it. We could really only think of one person who had, and I'm not kidding, pretty much every single trait on the list. So after discussing these details, we decided to perform a social experiment on this person. For our own sick pleasure, of course. Because, y'know, why not? We will be tracking this person's every move, emotion, snarky remark, shitty look, but more scientifically, every hysterical trait that he/SHE may (absolutely) possess. We live in a constant vacation; we need to entertain ourselves somehow.
Geesh, what else. There is seriously nothing going on right now. And it's driving me insane. Oh, okay, here's something. I'm trying to get into freelance writing and it's, big surprise, not as easy as I thought it would be. I really enjoy writing and I think I can write on several different topics so if you come across anything, please let me know! I've applied for a few different jobs but nothing has really come of it so far. I've been checking my email more obsessively than I normally do and it's really starting to bum me out. I actually just checked it, just now, and got denied. Sad.
Well I should wrap up this boring post with a quick shout out to someone I'm thankful for. I'm thankful for my fiancee. Smile :) He moved out here with me and we're living with my parents right now and he's been such a trooper! My family is not easy to live with and we have zero privacy. He sold his car before we left so we could have money to move and pay MY bills. Of course he's been a little fussy here and there but who wouldn't be under these circumstances? I know I would be a psycho if the tables were turned. But, then again, his family situation is WAY different than mine. (Lucky) Kidding! (Not Really)
Until I have something relevant to say,
September
Anyway, our test was pretty straight forward and my sister and I found a good way to remember everything for it. We decided to relate the info to things in our lives. For instance, we were studying Hysteria and what the traits were for someone who had it. We could really only think of one person who had, and I'm not kidding, pretty much every single trait on the list. So after discussing these details, we decided to perform a social experiment on this person. For our own sick pleasure, of course. Because, y'know, why not? We will be tracking this person's every move, emotion, snarky remark, shitty look, but more scientifically, every hysterical trait that he/SHE may (absolutely) possess. We live in a constant vacation; we need to entertain ourselves somehow.
Geesh, what else. There is seriously nothing going on right now. And it's driving me insane. Oh, okay, here's something. I'm trying to get into freelance writing and it's, big surprise, not as easy as I thought it would be. I really enjoy writing and I think I can write on several different topics so if you come across anything, please let me know! I've applied for a few different jobs but nothing has really come of it so far. I've been checking my email more obsessively than I normally do and it's really starting to bum me out. I actually just checked it, just now, and got denied. Sad.
Well I should wrap up this boring post with a quick shout out to someone I'm thankful for. I'm thankful for my fiancee. Smile :) He moved out here with me and we're living with my parents right now and he's been such a trooper! My family is not easy to live with and we have zero privacy. He sold his car before we left so we could have money to move and pay MY bills. Of course he's been a little fussy here and there but who wouldn't be under these circumstances? I know I would be a psycho if the tables were turned. But, then again, his family situation is WAY different than mine. (Lucky) Kidding! (Not Really)
Until I have something relevant to say,
September
Sunday, November 1, 2009
WHOA.
It's literally been forever since I've written to my beloved Internet. I am so sorry. Please don't leave me. I've been busy (not really) with school and trying to look for a job (halfheartedly). Things are bad in this economy, y'know. (Whatever). Personally, I think you make your own luck and create your own destiny and whatnot.
Moving on, I live in California now! It's November 1st and the temperature is going to be in the 90's today. I went Trick-or-Treating with my sisters last night under clear skies. That would never happen in T-Town; Halloween there is always cold and rainy. Toledo has a way of poetically keeping your happiness in check.
I think, since it's November, we should all remind ourselves of what we're thankful for. I may write more today, but right now I'll end this with one simple observation I made this morning. The sun is shining and the grass is (finally) growing.
What more could I ask for?
-September
Moving on, I live in California now! It's November 1st and the temperature is going to be in the 90's today. I went Trick-or-Treating with my sisters last night under clear skies. That would never happen in T-Town; Halloween there is always cold and rainy. Toledo has a way of poetically keeping your happiness in check.
I think, since it's November, we should all remind ourselves of what we're thankful for. I may write more today, but right now I'll end this with one simple observation I made this morning. The sun is shining and the grass is (finally) growing.
What more could I ask for?
-September
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