Wednesday, September 1, 2010

What Am I Turning Into..

My life is garbage
that has been forgotten. It's
rotting rapidly.

The stench that was my
hopes and dreams turns to dust, blows
away with the wind.

Even my writing
suffers the wrath of broken
promises, defeat.

I can pick up the
leftover pieces or toss
them aside again.

Who really cares here?
I've let it get this bad; There's
really nothing left.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Cities I want to live in:

--New Bedford, MA + Boston, MA
--Atlanta, GA
--New York, NY
--LA feels like home
--Just visit Chicago
--Seattle

Not Enough Sunshine for a Sunday Morning

Here is a guest post from a friend going through a rough patch. No judging! Enjoy.

Can I just go back to sleep? Bc there’s nothing for me today. Ugh I hate everyone right now. My mind is such a mess right now. And I don’t think watching 8 hours of Dexter really helps. At least he has a release. And a job. Just a job would be nice right now. How do I not have a job? Seriously. Wtf. How does my husband not have a job? I feel so bad hating him so much sometimes. I hate that when I sit down to write, my head just goes blank. Maybe I should sit down to write more often so my brain would stfu. I need to write a story about someone who hurts people. I need to get every inner emotion out, no matter how repressed or fucked up it is. I hate this constant feeling of never being good enough. I hate being hungry so often. I hate how I romanticize, like, everything. Kids shouldn’t be taught that. Life isn’t romantic or sweet and no one really deserves anything just for being alive. Jesus. I hate being so negative. Part of me really wants to be a suzy homemaker and clean our house perfectly and make 3 meals a day and wear a blue gingham apron and have Tupperware parties with perfect little hors d'oeuvres and a CLEAN HOUSE. Who fuckin knows. I don’t even know what my dream is. Is that what I really want? Maybe. On an episode of Dexter, he decides he just wants to be content and lead a normal life. And at first that didn’t seem very appealing to me. Sounded boring. Then, after really mauling it over for a minute, I decided that yes, that’s what I want. I mean, wouldn’t it be nice to just be content for once? To not just want want want want. For once, I don’t want to shoot for the moon and land in the stars or whatever. I want to get the job done and let that be adequate. Dear parents: thanks for making me this shitty under-achieving over-achiever that can quite get it right.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Reap The Benefits of My Boredom.

= The 10 Most Important Things They Didn't Teach You In School [via Cracked]

= Cheap Bastard Showoffs [via Yahoo!]

= PISSED [via Asylum UK]

= Watch That PuPu [via Engrish Funny]

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Love It.



Honesty is The Best Policy [via ICanHasInternets]

Monday, May 10, 2010

New Look. New Ideas. New New.

So, my dearest Internet, I have changed things up a bit and decided to add a few elements to my page in hopes to move away from conventional "jobs" so I can be a blogger/awesome writer full time.
My life has changed A LOT since I moved to Southern California last July. I've learned a lot about myself, about life, and about people (family, human nature, etc.). I feel like I've been searching for peace and purpose since I was 18. I hope and pray that I've found a way to feel more complete in these areas with the plan my NEW husband and I have.
So here's the idea: We live in the San Fernando Valley now where I have a great job (surrounded by numbnuts, but I can only be so picky)and where the sun shines everyday. Unfortunately, we came up with our fool-proof idea a little late to be able to stay out here so we are moving back home for a little while to pay off bills and get back on track. Then, we are going to start a new Lifestyle blog and travel around to different cities, staying a few weeks at a time to see how people live in different areas. One thing about the area that we come from, is that no one has any real perspective on life out side the shit hole that is Northwest Ohio.
For now, I'll be adding new types of posts that will be leading up to our new blog that should be ready in the next couple months or so. So, since today is Monday and Mondays are terrible by nature, I shall provide a small dose of smile. Thanks for stopping by! -SN

1. Rickyisms

2. Why You Can't Find Something You're Looking For

3. I just can't look away.

4. Yoda Kitteh

Sunday, February 28, 2010

I LOVE Being an Adult

It's too bad that I'm not "allowed" to be one at this time. Details to follow.